Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 (NIV) Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either one of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up.
I always thought that my long term friendships with my girlfriends were forever. I thought that no matter what may have been done or not done; said or not said -we would be there for one another in a both big ways and small. I thought my friends were my family and that our relationship was unconditional.
I guess I was wrong.
The grief of infertility is all consuming. This grief latched on to me like a leech draining me of my joy and selfishly took over my life causing me to be distant from everyone and everything that I love. When it comes to my friends, I have completely accepted my role in not being there for them the way that I used to. But now that it seems that this burden of grief has become just a little lighter I have reached out to my friend and she is not there.
I never thought it was possible to be so heart broken by the loss of a friendship that I didn't even know was gone. Even writing this entry I have had to pause to dry my eyes.
My only resolve is to not give up now matter how much the rejection hurts. Along with all of the other challenges in my life, just letting my friendships go is not the answer. While my friends and I may be on completely different paths in life, may they always know that they are important to me, I love them, and I am praying for them. In Jesus name,
I guess I was wrong.
The grief of infertility is all consuming. This grief latched on to me like a leech draining me of my joy and selfishly took over my life causing me to be distant from everyone and everything that I love. When it comes to my friends, I have completely accepted my role in not being there for them the way that I used to. But now that it seems that this burden of grief has become just a little lighter I have reached out to my friend and she is not there.
I never thought it was possible to be so heart broken by the loss of a friendship that I didn't even know was gone. Even writing this entry I have had to pause to dry my eyes.
My only resolve is to not give up now matter how much the rejection hurts. Along with all of the other challenges in my life, just letting my friendships go is not the answer. While my friends and I may be on completely different paths in life, may they always know that they are important to me, I love them, and I am praying for them. In Jesus name,
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